Speechless..

I've long given up reading news or emails and look at photos of deaths whenever it involves the Zionist/Israeli regime killing the Palestinians. I felt physically sick. At least, I'd avoid reading too much in depth about such news. Not that I don't care, but because my heart can't take it anymore, especially since it usually involves deaths of children..I don't even dare to put their death pics in this blog.

There's so much sadness and grief coming from Gaza where children and innocent people are being killed. Many are suffering and until now the number of victims and casualties is increasing. It saddens me even more that as usual, when such things happen, most of us only cursing to those Israeli without really doing anything to help.

My heart bleed and cry and there is this feeling of helplessness. But..to help our Palestinians brothers and sisters in Gaza, let us try and do something by boycotting these products. I am trying not to use these products by any means though it's really hard to do so (I've stopped buying Mc D and Starbucks now) but I think this the least I can do, no matter how small the impact it could make.

(I heard part of the Israeli armies training is to stab and kill life cats mercilessly so they will feel numb when killing people (the Palestenians) ...And that makes me super duper pissed off!!! I'm banning these products seriously for good now..)

Let’s not forget to say a prayer for those who may never see the light of another day. It’s the least we can do. Hope u guys will do so too..

New year,new life..

New year is approaching again. I can describe 2008 as the most memorable year of my life. Its unpredictable, unforgettable..Its full of surprises.The first part of the year..I was once a lawyer who used to do litigation and my daily routine to courts, suddenly change my job and become a government officer in Putrajaya. And its not in my 2008 planner.

~And the biggest transformation that happened to me is that my status tremendously changed this year...I'm married!!I never thought of it before and its completely not in my 2008 calendar, plus i can't never imagine of getting married (which i initially considered early before) by the end of the year. Oh briefly about the wedding. Words can't describe the happiness and contentment that I felt on that day despite of the cold feet and nervous feeling before the wedding. 20th December 2008 when everyone was busy buzzing about Mawi's wedding, I am officially wedded to my schoolmate who finally open my heart to settle down. I am proud of him because he uttered the lafaz akad in a single shot and also he voluntarily and willingly wear pink on that particular day though its a no-no colour for him. I wore a pink dress which I "don't fancy so much" (the design is not up to my expectation and doesn't compatible with the price) sorry to say though its from B.C designer. 4 days before the wedding and before going back to Pahang I only able to see the whole dress and try it, can u imagine. huhuh.. It comes with not so long train at the back (which i intent to cut it off before but i didn't), and still need someone to hold it for me because of the difficulty to walk properly and the victim was my bridesmaid, Zaty.

~Overall, it was a simple wedding but yet personally memorable. I'm glad the hectic is finally over.I would like to thank everyone who've been struggling in preparing everything form the start until the end of the wedding.Thanks to friends who turned up on that day and to my husband's side the following day, also to those who not able to come but still have time to share thoughts by sending wishes thru sms, calls,e-mails and blogs. Really really appreciate it. My deepest apology for any shortcomings during the kenduri and sorry for not being able to spend sufficient time with all of you..

~People say marriage is easy, maintaining it is where the challenge lies, please pray for our happiness and blessings thru out our lives..^-^

~Salam Maal Hijrah and Happy New Year everyone!! May your day ahead filled with prosperous, successful and loving moments with your loved ones...

Monday Mundane..

Note: craps not worth reading..;)

~Just got back from Cameron Highlands last Saturday. Attended the 4 days 'inspection' course is so tiring since the weather was gloomy and rainy every single day .Dunno whether because of my age or other factors but I found that Cameron is not exciting as it was during my last trip here back in 1999. Unlucky me,I bought packets of strawberries but had to throw all of 'em away coz they only last for 4 days.. And the roses..? Forget about the roses. Most florists I met on the cool land told me they can last for 5 years (serious..) coz the special chemical they put to it but it begin to droop in 5 days. Lesson No 1: U can trust the florists that your flowers can last for 5 years, but only if u stay in Cameron for 5 years. They still fresh in cool air. Lesson No 2: Don't buy strawberries if u not intent to eat it within 4 days. Ok, whatever..

pweety roses in cameron..unfortunately they won't last longer..

~ Yesterday went to the closing of Batik Bazaar in PWTC with Aida. I already ignore the tiredness of traveling back to KL the day before when it comes to 'shopping'. I'm not a big fan of batik but since we have to wear batik every Thursday so need to add some batik stuff in my closet.Bumped into Pak Lah with his Mrs Jane.Hehe. Spent the afternoon, squeezing into the small crowds from one stall to another.Went crazy about those selection of batik materials with average and affordable price but had to limit my purchase when Aida gave me the reminding look that there's other important stuff to shop i.e. hantaran. Ending up, I found myself and Aida at Sogo with a few bags in our hands.

hi Pak Lah! (waving)

~ Before this I’d been keeping a mental note of things I’ve loved at weddings and things that I didn’t like. Whether it’s food choices, decor or colors, timing of the day’s activities,my dream wedding will be based on things I’ve seen work well from weddings I’ve attended in the past. That's my personal, general thought before.But when time getting closer, I rather think that those thoughts are not really relevant anymore. I just want things to be done simple because the inside feeling to finish everything quick and fast is more overwhelming.No headache.But people say u have to enjoy everything from the preparation until the wedding because that is only once in a lifetime experience..really..hmm.. Enough craps, I wish I can have more time to indulge myself crapping in here again. I'm craving and wishing for more time to meet life's expectation. After all maybe the limited time given has a wisdom behind it. God knows best..

Till then..daa..

Hijaz..

Hijaz, my youngest brother, got 5A's in the UPSR recently, as expected by the whole family..And Hijaz did mention before he's pretty confident he will obtain straight A's cos the questions are peanuts! . So no surpriselah.hehe. Anyway congrats Hijaz. So Hijaz lays down the curtain to the UPSR clan in the siblings after his twin sisters last year. At last...And his cousin Hafiz got straight A's in his UPSR as well.

This is Hijaz. Pic was taken on my engagement day (Hijaz baru lepas nangis kena gigit tebuan kat jari.. )

Best of Luck to Anim my other bro who's struggling for his SPM rite now.Chayok bro!

Thoughts..

Kalau kita boleh lukis apa yang kita nak dalam kertas,dan lukisan itu boleh jadi realiti alangkah bestnya.Kalau boleh lukis sebuah kereta bersama pemandunya, senangla saya ke tempat keje ,tak payah mengharapkan Si Shukor utk tumpangkan tiap2 hari ke Putrajaya. Kalau boleh lukis sebuah rumah betul2 sebelah ofis lagi best, tiap2 hari boleh gi ofis jalan kaki je.Tak payah bangun awal2 kejar masa sebelum 8.30.

Kalau boleh lukis apa yang diimpikan utk wedding pon best jugak. Tak payah pening nak tempah baju, cari photographer, mak andam, hantaran dan sebagainya. Biar wedding simple, tapi meriah, asalkan semua orang happy dan puas hati. Orang kata tak kisahla sesimple mana atau berapa nilai sesebuah persiapan perkahwinan,yang penting nilai kebahagiaan selepas itu. Betul tak.(apa kena mengenanya pulak ni??)

Hari ni dah Jumaat. Cuaca yang tak menentu menyebabkan kesihatan merudum…lalu keje pun tak bape nak jalan..

4.10.08....

'Anyone can catch your eye, but it takes someone special to catch your heart.'

~To my dearie "fionsay"...143 so much..!!! ;)

Salam Syawal...

"May Allah fill your heart with gladness, your home with good cheer, your life with the brightest blessings today and always!"

~Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Batin...~

Updetla sket..

Selamat Berpuasa semua!!...Puasa tahun ni adalah puasa paling tak best dalam hidup sebab blom boleh lagi nak balik berbuka ramai2 dengan family. Tapi takpela mana2 pun, maksud berpuasa tu yg penting.. Stuck dah berminggu2 lamanya dalam kursus yang padat dan berlemon2 dengan aktiviti ni. Baru balik dari BTN kat Kem Meru,Klang, dan rasanya tahap kecintaan saya pada negara Malaysia ni dah semakin menebal lepas kena 'basuh' sket dengan fasilitators dekat kem BTN tu.

Oh cite pasal polis ngan tentera...tak menakutkan seperti yang disangka sebelum ni. Kem tentera adalah tempat paling best sepanjang kursus even kena kawad pagi petang,berlatih menembak,survival, tapi tentera2 kat situ baik2 belaka. Even tempat penginapan tak best,kena berkhemah dalam hutan, kena pakai uniform yg oversize, spike boot size besar etc, tapi pengalaman dan layanan yang dorang bagi takkan dilupakan sampai bila2. Minggu polis kat Maktab PDRM okla jugak,tapi tak se best di tentera.

Apa lagi nak ngarut..lagi 2 minggu kursus nak abis, x sabar nak balik rumah, nak buka puasa nak raya dan sewaktu dengannya. Kejapje rasa 3 bulan, lepas ni kena masuk keje cam biasa.

And to umi, my bro hijaz n sis wa, yang sambut birthday bulan 9 ni..Happy Birthday...(Hijaz dah merdeka sebab baru abis UPSR)...

Pic-kenangan masa kat lapang sasar menembak,kem jugra

-takat ni jelah, cite lain2 tu...nantila updet..^_^