Reflection..

It has been almost 4 months since I officially started my chambering. Rite now I still clueless and wondering whether legal thingy is my cup of tea. When I looked at myself in the mirror I feel there's something wrong with my life, that I should follow my own heart and do something else which I feel happy about it and I still searching for the answer. I don't need people to decide my future since the choice is mine and I have my own stand about it. Ironically, some people tend to think that for example when you choose to take medicine during your study u should be a doctor whether u like it or not and it applies the same to laws. U must be a lawyer then..uhh I feel irresolute. Confused... and it really annoys me sometimes. How I wish I could change that rigid perspective. But I just cant..
At least I can express my thoughts here..

And this song perfectly reflect my mind rite now..

Reflection
Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Everyday
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now in a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?

I won't pretend that I'm someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense. -yeah right...
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson